Hi. I am a 29 year old mother of 2 beautiful little girls. I am engaged to be married to a wonderful man who means so much to me. I am Bi and live a polyamerous lifestyle. As I stated above I am engaged to a man i have been with for 3 years, I also have a girlfriend of 2 1/2 years who I love dearly. I do not believe in monagomy. i do not feel it should be up to just 1 person to cater to all of your needs. As long as there is trust and honestly in a relationship, this lifestyle is very rewarding. I have had a very hard life and have had to learn many painful lessons in life but I am so much stronger as a result. I have been described as extremely caring and considerate, very trustworthy, a little crazy at times, loyal to a fault at times and brutally honest. Sure i have my faults but so does everyone. I do not believe in lying. I feel lying is extremely disrespectful and shouldn't be done in any circumstance. If you have any questions please ask.
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2011 | 1 year ago
I’m feeling so trapped lately. Like an animal in a cage. I don’t know how to take this normalacy. (Sp?). It’s driving me crazy. I should be happy and content. I finally rid myself of my ex completely and married an amazing man who would do anything for me….. A man who loves me no matter what and fullfills my need for roughness and primalness. But no matter how hard he tries or how hard I try its not enough…. I still long and ache for the gentleness of a woman’s touch. That longing just won’t go away. I had someone who could fill that awful void in me. Someone who could satisfy my need for both roughness and gentleness all at the same time and yet again that person has just disappeared again. No explanation or reason just gone… What is wrong with me??? Why can’t I ever be satisfied? Why do I want more?? Why do I have this irisitable urge to just escape? Why do I crave that craziness? That aching need that just won’t go away??? Why did you take away my release???? I don’t know what to do anymore. I can’t fall back into that awful darkness. I know I’m not in love with my release. I just crave the touch. The way my body feels beneath the weight of the only one who has ever completely satisfied me. I can’t even begin to explain it. And I don’t mean just sexually satisfying, I mean satisfying every need or want I have without me having to speak a word… I know its just sex but then again its not “just sex”. It’s never just sex with me. When I am intimate with someone, man or woman, it is a way for me to get release, to let go of all control, to just be…. I truly believe and know that sex doesn’t have to be about love. I just want my release back. I NEED my release back….
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2011 | 1 year ago
Late night thoughts.
It’s those nights where you find it hard to sleep, you toss and turn in your bed while you let all of your past replay itself in your head. You think about what could have been, what would have been and what should have been, you think of the “what if’s” and the “why not’s”. You feel your heart aching as unwanted memories slowly makes their way across your mind. You’re exhausted but you can’t sleep, because your emotions strikes the hardest at night.
(Source: wthellmichelle, via sweetantidote)
